Joie de vivre

Have you ever had those songs in your playlists that throw you in melancholy and dreaminess whenever you listen to them? It's the same kind of 'empty' feeling you experience when you listen to a song from your early teens, for instance; however, in this case you know what it reminds you of: the blanket forts, evenings with your best friend, your first love. And this is not the type of melody I'm talking about. With these songs...it's like they throw you somewhere; somewhere in the past, in no known space or time, in a past you don't know when it happened, or IF it did. They remind you of something you're not sure exists, they make you return to some place you don't know where it lies, or if it's even there. They make that usual emptiness even emptier by making your soul long for...that something. And the more you listen to them, the longer a distance they build between you, the listener, and your object of contemplation. It's weird, and fasci...

Ne dorim sa ne putem alinia "lumii civilizate". N e intrebam de ce ne construim o imagine proasta in fata Europei. Exemplul depre care voi scrie este unul mic; mic, dar care m-a intristat si care este aplicat, totusi, si la alte niveluri. De cand m-am mutat in Olanda, nu am avut nicio interactiune cu televiziunea romana; nu ca mi-ar displacea, dar nu sunt fana televizorului in general. In seara asta, brusc, mi-am amintit de Selectia Nationala; in viziunea mea, un show destul de important, avand in vedere ca si el participa oarecum la construirea unei imagini a Romaniei in Europa. Intr-adevar, producatorii nu dau doi bani pe SN, pe ESC in general, pe constructia unui show adevarat, demn de integrarea in economia experientei de astazi. Zicem ca Romania se poate schimba daca exista suficient de multi care sa vrea si sa actioneze in directia asta. Dar atunci cand din juriu fac parte oameni care nu stiu sa vada dincolo de aparente, care se pierd in stereotipuri si cad victima gand...

"Tell me, Tell me that you want me And I'll be yours completely For better or for worse. [...] You make my heart feel like it's summer When the rain is pouring down You make my whole world feel so right when it's wrong. [...] When we are together you make me feel Like my mind is free And my dreams are reachable. You know I never ever believed in love; Or, believed one day That you would come along and free me."

 "No matter what they say I will follow my heart I think it’s time for me to stand up And hold my crown I’m living my dreams Never been so alive The sky’s the limit now that I know I can fly No more pulling me down, no more mucking around I’m growing up, I’m growing up And it’s my time to shine  It doesn’t matter if I’m wrong or right I’m getting stronger every time I try not to let it go Take it one step at a time I’ve made my ego, now it’s time for me to let it shine"

"I'll be the one if you want me to Anywhere I would have followed you, Say something, I'm giving up on you..." It's kinda exhausting... Please say something! 

"I could stay awake just to hear you breathing, Watch you smile while you are sleeping While you're far away and dreaming. I could spend my life in this sweet surrender, I could stay lost in this moment forever Every moment spent with you is a moment I treasure Don't want to close my eyes I don't want to fall asleep 'Cause I'd miss you baby And I don't want to miss a thing [...] Lie close to you, feeling your heart beating And I'm wondering what you're dreaming, Wondering if it's me you're seeing Then I kiss your eyes And thank God we're together I just wanna stay with you in this moment forever Forever and ever [...] I don't want to miss one smile I don't want to miss one kiss I just want to be with you Right here with you, just like this I just want to hold you close Feel your heart so close to mine And just stay here in this moment For all the rest of time" #Iambreathinglove #loveissurroundingme #...

"We are the heroes of our times But we're dancing with the demons in our minds" A story about demons, heroes, and life.

"I’ve been walking, in the darkness Always hiding from my true self Afraid of letting go, of deception in their eyes A wounded ego, unafraid to start a fight..."

"Summer’s here, winter’s gone Finally I can see the sun Every time you walk into the room And all my fears disappear When I’m in your atmosphere I don’t know what it is you do But you do [...] And I can’t explain why It’s the way you are It’s just the way that you are That can make my day The bad times go away [...] Like an old radio A song I just can’t let go All I got on my mind is you [...] There’s nothing I could do about it [...] And I’ll be right there When you need someone to guide you [...] Whatever it takes I will be doing it for you [...] I wanna take my time and spent it all on you" #hiseyes <3

"One moment I have you, The next you're gone..."

Source: https://www.facebook.com/Voltaj I simply admire these boys who are doing their best to show the world (Europe, in particular) that the general beliefs are not even close to what the truth is; who are strongly determined to go to the bitter end to prove people otherwise; to point out who WE, Romanians, really are.  I will move abroad soon, and I would be so glad to do it with all my heart, without bearing the fear of rejection because of my nationality. I want people out there to actually become open-minded, like they claim they are. Here is a nice English article with an interview with Voltaj , the team who are going to take part to Eurovision Song Contest 2015 ; also, the Romanian version of the song, 'De la capat' (in the article), as well as the English one, 'All over again' (below). You have my vote, boys! Fingers crossed!

"A heart of steel starts to grow"

"Somedays I barely hold on...  When life drags me down  I wanna let go"

                                ~~~ You've got the words to change a nation But you're biting your tongue, You've spent a life time stuck in silence Afraid you'll say something wrong, If no one ever hears it how we gonna learn your song? [...] You've got a heart as loud as lions So why let your voice be tamed? Maybe we're a little different There's no need to be ashamed, You've got the light to fight the shadows So stop hiding it away. [...] We all matter too. If the truth has been forbidden Then we're breaking all the rules. [...] We're all wonderful, wonderful people, So when did we all get so fearful? Now we're finally finding our voices So take a chance, come help me sing this. Tineti cont de mesajul acestei melodii, caci problema despre care vorbeste e intalnita la fiecare pas in ziua ...

... dar crezi ce spui? Spui ca iti place ploaia, dar iti deschizi umbrela inca de la primii stropi, de frica sa nu racesti, sa nu ti se strice parul sau machiajul.      Spui ca iti place soarele, dar tanjesti dupa umbra copacilor ca sa nu transpiri excesiv, ca sa nu te arzi, ca sa nu faci insolatie. Spui ca iti place sa faci sport, dar alegi autobuzul in locul mersului pe jos, probabil pentru ca mai mereu esti in intarziere, nu ai timp.  Spui ca nu iti place de o persoana, dar vorbesti mult cu ea, aproape ca sunteti prieteni; vrei sa pari o persoana buna? Nu esti, pentru ca o persoana buna nu este falsa. Spui ca urasti transportul in comun, dar il folosesti des. Probabil distantele sunt prea mari sau ploaia, respectiv soarele - prea puternici. Spui ca iti plac florile, dar le smulgi, le sustragi din viata lor cea de toate zilele, le omori cu scopul de a-ti decora o parte din viata. Spui ca ai grija de tine si de corpul tau, dar il imbacsest...

Nu stiu de ce simt nevoia sa scriu. E nasol afara, e frig; gadget-ul care joaca rolul prezentatorului meteo de pe Desktop imi arata 1 grad cu plus. Azi-dimineata, inainte de scoala, erau -4, plus vant. Am o carte langa mine ["Medalionul", de Teodor Parapiru] - pe langa carti de scoala s.a. - si o cana maaaaaare de 3in1 Strong. E cald si bine sub patura, la laptop, cu Facebook, Vama Veche pe fundal si... ceasul fara sticla de pe perete.  E ciudat cum imi lipseste acest ceas, care e un simplu ceas, atunci cand nu sunt acasa. In timp ce invat/citesc/fac ordine/stau degeaba, "ticai" si eu in gand, odata cu el. M-am trezit la un moment-dat cand nu mai avea baterie ca ma simteam straina in propria pestera ... Am de facut ceva lucruri pentru maine, dar le las pe mai tarziu; nu prea am dispozitia necesara [mi se trage de la vreme].  Postarea asta nu prea are sens. N-am scris despre cum ma simt, nimic interesant din viata mea proprie si personala. Doar ca stau mot-co...